a hole in the world

sometimes u think about things. and u wonder why things end up the way it is. how come the things that you really want u dont get. and when ur not passionate about something. it just falls right in ur face. when u look too hard for something u dont usually find it. but when ur ignorant and impartial about things. stuff works out. i want to care less about my situation now. ignorance is bliss. but it crops up every single time im alone. when im brushing my teeth. when im lying on the bed. when im driving home alone. headlights pass me by and i feel numb. if only i were lying in a chalked outline. if only there could be a sign. *my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me*so wont you kill me so i'd die happy*